I'm Feeling Very Negative

Fairly self explanatory. Every once in a while, they just come over me. Nothing really causes them. Nothing really gets me out of them. Just gotta let them run their course. But you want to know something? Yes, I am a proud person. But you know what else? I'm proud to hide my inferiority. Yeah. That's right. My inferiority. Because I view everyone as better than myself. I can't help but wonder just what is so great about me? Sure, I'm a good writer, but that's it. I'll never be great. Never be acknowledged. I don't even know if I want to be. I don't know what I want anymore. I used to know. I used to want a lot of things. Now I wonder why I ever wanted any of it.

I know where I have come from....but I have no idea of where I am going. It's like I'm in a maze; just when I think I've got a clue of things, I take a new corner and it all gets shot out the window. I mean, seriously! What's the point of it all anyway?! We go about life concerned about making money, getting a good job, going to school to get the good job, and what do we get in the end? Satisfaction? A pat on the back? When we die, or the good Lord calls us home, will any of it really matter? Money, can't take it with you. Fame, we are all equal in Heaven. Satisfaction.... Satisfaction over what? I mean, we all really just want to be "somebody", right? Well, I certainly don't. Who needs fame? Who needs money? Not me. It's just a lie, anyway. The dollar bill is what is referred to as a "federal reserve note". It's not even real currency. It's just a small piece of paper "representing" what we think is our money, when in fact, the money is all owned by someone else. So why are we so obsessed over small pieces of "I-Owe-Yous"?



................I'm just gonna end this here. To everyone who just read the above....rant?....please don't be concerned. As I said, these moods just come every now and then and this is just me venting. Nothing to be concerned about. Maybe. Don't know.