Epiphany

I recently discovered something very interesting about all of my stories. I have long had the suspicion that my imagination was building up to some super epic book or story, and I have had a startling and shocking revelation that this may very well be true.

I was doing some research and thinking back to past stories and ideas that I never finished or never really developed, and it hit me. Every single idea that I have ever had about a story has always built upon a previous idea. After this discovery, the more I though about it, the more it made sense. Perhaps my true intention behind those stories wasn't to get them finished or published, but instead, perhaps my true goal behind them was to develop a particular idea or certain aspect of the plot to a certain point. Once I reached this point, I subconsciously, or perhaps even divinely guided, began to take that particular aspect or idea and incorporate it into a new idea, where it was further developed, added to, and forged, until it was ready to move on. Once that aspect reached a certain point, I added on others. Experimented. Saw what fit with it and what didn't. The Ever War may very well the best idea and writing that I have ever had.

Now that I have realized this, I now have a new understanding of how my imagination works. However, now I have a new challenge as well. Along with this new understanding, a new responsibility and duty has arisen. Now I can consciously take and mold ideas together. Now that I think back, I can see how cool this ability is. It's absolutely perfect for fanfiction! I often take movie plots, as well as book plots, and tweak them. I add characters, change the plot to something that I view as better. Perhaps I can now do the same to my own writings. This may be the greatest and most challenging skill that I can master.

Caffeine

Alright, I know this will sound crazy, but I think part of the depressive mood I have been in was in fact, partially caused by caffeine.

I was watching the History channel the other day, and they were discussing the coffee bean and the effects caffeine has on the human psyche. Studies indicate that although caffeine in large amounts can be dangerous, caffeine in the correct amount stimulates the human mind, allowing us to have more energy, think more clearly, and generally be happier people. It provides us with the little pick me up that we all require in order to make it through the day.

So, you know what? I am going to drink caffeine again, but I have learned my lesson. Don't go hog wild on chocolate covered coffee beans, a mountain dew, and a large soft drink, and you won't come out of it with a three day headache. Common sense. See? This in itself is proof of those studies. I haven't thought this clearly since two weeks ago when I took up that stupid stupid dare.

New Resolutions

Ok, I have been dealing with some stuff in my life, and I have decided that there needs to be some changes. I am not at all entirely satisfied with who I am portrayed as. Therefore, I am going to change that. I am going to truly be true to myself, as well as to everyone else. What this means exactly is of a personal nature which I am not going to discuss at any length, but just know that I am making a wise decision.

Also, I have had an epiphany. It has recently come to my attention that all my stories are connected in some way. They build upon each other. I cannot explain it any other way. I have always had a feeling that my stories were leading up to something, and I now realize that that may be entirely accurate. I feel like every new idea I come up with is leading me closer to some epic tale that has yet to be told. I'm not sure what this means, but if it means that I can at least add one tale to the many that are out there, then I hope that at least one person will enjoy it.